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#1 2011-01-01 07:16:29
- AnimeCreatorArtist
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My long, depressing life story
I used to not have a care in the world. I used to have everything a growing boy could need. But all of that slowly turned into a nightmare without notice.
Let me give you all the basic information about myself. I was born in Missouri, and I have a family of six. A four year old sister, an eight year old brother, a 14 year old brother, and I myself am almost 13. My mother is a hair stylist, and my dad is laid off.
I have had many tramautic childhood expiriences that I am always reflecting on and regreting. And most of them are stupid things that don't make any diference to my life now. But what is probably the thing that held me back at a normal life was my voice. It was always sort of high pitched and not understandable. I went to speech class during elementary school and everything, but I never noticed what everyone else had. And from that point in my life, I always thought of my mother as caring and simply nice, but I have a complete diferent point of view on everything now. My dad was always pathetic. He would sit down watching TV all day and eat. Also because of him getting laid off we dont have real TV. We have basic, basic cable. But was even worse was the way he acted. My younger brother and I share a room. It's almost as bad as the nightmares I have (and that's really saying something) And my older brother would act like such an idiot all the time. He pushed me down the stairs in a laundry basket. He caused me a ton of pain, not to mention the perminent scar he gave me below my nose. Yet i'm still not the one who's messed up, well atleast not in average terms...
As I moved on in life, I had many more of those tramautic expiriences as I said before. But everything changed about a year ago. I'm not sure what had happened, but it seemed as if everything i knew before was wrong.
It was like something in my mind was beat sensless and turned upside down. I looked on to the world from a complete different point. I had dark thoughts. My thoughts soon began to scare me and I had horrible nightmares about them. My mom would yell at me and tell me things that hurt a lot on the inside. She'd also slap me real hard sometimes. Soon I began not caring what my parents thought of me. I would always secretly talk to myself. I'd call them fools. I had so many dark thoughts, I became depressed. VERY depressed. For some reason my older brother got all the attention in the family, I was never sure why. But after figuring out about my voice, I rarely speak to anyone besides my 3 friends, not even my family. I'd always wonder how my family would react if they ever heard my life story. How dark and empty my mind is becoming...... But I don't really care anymore. I could care less if my family paid any attention to me. I'm just glad I could let this all out and tell people.....
I'm basically honorary nasty. N-n-n-n-nasty jazz
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#2 2011-01-01 07:22:10
- ProgrammingFreak
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Re: My long, depressing life story
Its good if your family listens to you! Listen and they will do the same for you!
I lived in Missouri! And was born there!
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#3 2011-01-01 07:34:23
- The_Dancing_Donut
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Re: My long, depressing life story
Maybe you should talk to a counsellor or Childline?
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#4 2011-01-01 08:16:18
- BlahBlahRatSheep
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Re: My long, depressing life story
well,that is very sad. ; - ;
I suggest um,thinking of happy thoughts and uhhh....idk but watching anime or drawing always lighten up my day. •w•
the sentence above in general would be:
Do your favorite thing to do and/or express your feelings(or express feelings you want to feel) into a talent you have.(no I do not draw creepy scary/emo things e_e)
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#5 2011-01-01 08:35:59
- DarkForce1998
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Re: My long, depressing life story
Not to be offensive but this isn't for Scratch. Find somewhere else you can talk about this. but the Scratch website is always welcoming. I don't think people should judge you because of your voice. Imagine how boring the world would be if everyone had the same voice.
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#6 2011-01-01 08:44:56
Re: My long, depressing life story
I too am quiet around people. Because of heart braking childhood with family I have portrayed my parents in a similar way such as you have portrayed your parents. It is only now as I grow older do I see the emotional impact that has also been inflicted on my parents as all they wanted was to give their very best to me but they think to themselves that they have failed. The actions that happened between us have and probably will continue to, bring emotional pain for the rest of our lives.
Wrighting is always the best to let things out. Unfortunately I have a good memory. I choose not to forget, only so I become a better person than those who inflicted the pain.(Not saying anyone was bad) But it is also important to not let it destroy your life further.
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#7 2011-01-01 09:41:02
Re: My long, depressing life story
Print this out or copy it down to a sheet of paper
Then leave that on the kitchen counter or somewhere else where they'll all see it
Well that is if you really do want them to read it
If you don't then I'd suggest talking to your school's guidance counselor
Actually you might as well talk to the counselor either way
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#9 2011-01-01 13:20:04
- littletonkslover
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Re: My long, depressing life story
That's-
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That's the dark nature of capitalism. ~ Wonder Showzen
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#11 2011-01-01 13:26:20
- militarydudes
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Re: My long, depressing life story
AnimeCreatorArtist, I don't think Scratch is the place to share this.
Try talking with your parents. If they aren't noticing you, they obviously don't know how you feel. So, tell them. Tell them they aren't noticing you. Tell them you feel unwanted. A proper parent should know how their child feels. And if their child feels misplaced, they're not doing there job. All you have to do is speak up.
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#12 2011-01-01 13:27:24
- floatingmagictree
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Re: My long, depressing life story
militarydudes wrote:
AnimeCreatorArtist, I don't think Scratch is the place to share this.
Try talking with your parents. If they aren't noticing you, they obviously don't know how you feel. So, tell them. Tell them they aren't noticing you. Tell them you feel unwanted. A proper parent should know how there child feels. And if there child feels misplaced, there not doing there job. All you have to do is speak up.
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Sorry for being a grammar nazi, but it was necessary.
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#13 2011-01-01 13:28:18
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Re: My long, depressing life story
floatingmagictree wrote:
militarydudes wrote:
AnimeCreatorArtist, I don't think Scratch is the place to share this.
Try talking with your parents. If they aren't noticing you, they obviously don't know how you feel. So, tell them. Tell them they aren't noticing you. Tell them you feel unwanted. A proper parent should know how there child feels. And if there child feels misplaced, there not doing there job. All you have to do is speak up.their
they're
Sorry for being a grammar nazi, but it was necessary.
Yeah I noticed that after I posted. :P
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#14 2011-01-01 13:46:54
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Re: My long, depressing life story
This seems to cinematic to be true.
Is this a story or real?
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#15 2011-01-01 14:00:28
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Re: My long, depressing life story
Cool Story Bro
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#16 2011-01-01 14:20:09
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Re: My long, depressing life story
soupoftomato wrote:
This seems to cinematic to be true.
Is this a story or real?
Yes it is real. A person can be a whole lot diferent than he seems. But the worst part was that nobody ever knew I was hurting, and still am.
I'm basically honorary nasty. N-n-n-n-nasty jazz
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#17 2011-01-01 14:21:09
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Re: My long, depressing life story
GlitchSprite wrote:
Cool Story Bro
excellent use of that meme
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#18 2011-01-01 14:33:11
Re: My long, depressing life story
Maybe you could slowly do more and more with your parents/siblings until you have a good relationship. 
You could tell them about it, all though you might not want to. Just try and relax a bit and forget about this, or just be thankful for, uh, something. Just have fun basically.
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#20 2011-01-01 14:38:32
Re: My long, depressing life story
GlitchSprite wrote:
Cool Story Bro
This isn't the time or place.
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#21 2011-01-01 14:42:44
Re: My long, depressing life story
i don't even have basic cable
but my parents chose that, cause they think it
"upsets my pubescent brain."
wow, compared to you i'm pretty lucky
i'm an only child, my parents are really smart and nice, and their rules are really laid back
i find that when i talk to people, i feel better, no matter what it's about
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#23 2011-01-01 14:57:47
Re: My long, depressing life story
Tell your parents. They need to know if you're unhappy.
EDIT: Oh, wow. She slapped you? No wonder. Well, it's no use talking to them in that case. If you like any of your teachers you could talk to them, though.
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#24 2011-01-01 15:04:20
Re: My long, depressing life story
GlitchSprite wrote:
Cool Story Bro
Dude what the-
What is wrong with you. Do you have a heart?
So insensitive.
Be more considerate of other's LIVES. Yes, LIVES. To someone who is having hardships that could make them feel horrible... to an extent.
I cannot believe you posted that.
That really sucks for you. Like, really.
I would suggest seeing a therapist to help. Just tell him/her about your problems.
Maybe some kind of mental professional for your nightmares.
If you are having trouble sleeping, use some of my sleep methods:
-Hot Milk Before Bed (Makes you drowsy.)
-Don't have sugar or coffee before bed
-Sleeping pills/medicine (If it is really that bad)
-Be active during the day (Tires you out)
-Think happy thoughts (This will help with nightmares. Don't even think about HAVING nightmares.)
-Not too much spicy food. (Gives you nightmares for some reason)
-Plan ahead (Give yourself something to look forward too)
-Eat healthy
A lot of those are myths, but they're worth a try.
Next: Try talking to your parents. They are there to help.
If they are really THAT bad, however, maybe talk to another relative whom you are more comfortable around. you could also talk to:
-Teachers
-Friends
-Other Mentors/Tutors
-Friendly Adults you know
Even if they can't help, you will feel a lot better. Trust me on that one.
Try calling Kids Help Phone (Number: 1-800-668-6868 <- CALL ONLY IF DIRE). Tell them about your parents (ESPECIALLY if they are hitting/beating you are being offensive with words)
They will also help with your other problems.
If they are actully HITTING, SLAPPING, BEATING or anything similar you could also contact CPS (Child Protection Society) or something similar about your family issues. Same goes with name calling and neglect.
Last thing: Find something you and your brother both like. Then you can get a long more. Keep an eye on him, see what he enjoys, and try to join in. That will build a better relationship and possible get your parents to notice you more.
Also please try to stay positive. Don't be too depressed, it almost always works out in the end. No suicide, please. I hate when that happens.
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#25 2011-01-01 15:05:01
Re: My long, depressing life story
sanddude wrote:
EDIT: Oh, wow. She slapped you? No wonder. Well, it's no use talking to them in that case. If you like any of your teachers you could talk to them, though.
Isn't that illegal?
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